<p>starting september 11,(ang galing a, 9/11 talaga.) i’m going to make a list of things that made my stay in trinity university asia/st. luke’s college of nursing extra special.i don’t care if you laugh, you cry, you’re touched, kung makarelate kayo, e di maganda.:) I’m just here to tell you the silliness and the toxicity in this course. <br /></p>

<ul><li><font color=”#000000″>ang HS-c. *bow*</font></li><li><font color=”#9933ff”>INSIGNIS</font>, <font color=”#ff0099″>MAGIS</font>, <font color=”#0066ff”>CENTENNIALES</font>,<strike><font color=”#3300cc”>invictus</font>,sobreviviente,bahaghari</strike></li><li><font color=”#000000″>anatomy,healthcare,med-surg,micropara – TAYO LANG MAY GANYAN.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>pag may exam sa AS</font>, <em><font color=”#ff9933″>prof: okay quiz next meeting</font></em> <em><font color=”#660000″>all students:mam, RETDEM namin next meeting din.</font></em>. <font color=”#000000″>next week na lang ang exam. kahit na vital signs lang ang ireretdem, gusto may exam na mapopostponed</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><strong>SNA DAYS!!</strong></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>pinning/capping — akala naman kasama na kami dito</font></li><li><font size=”3″ color=”#ff3300″><strong>ang gwapong gwapong si <font face=”courier new,courier”><u>SIR MESSIAH</u></font><u><font face=”courier new,courier”>.</font></u></strong></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><em>RETURN DEMO!!</em> mapavital signs, bedmaking or postioning, lahat pinapractice, kahit sa lapag.</font></li><li><font color=”#ff0099″>MAGIS: LET’S GO MAGIS!!</font> <strong><font color=”#9900ff”>INSIGNIS</font>/<font color=”#0066ff”>CENTENNIALES</font>:MMDA</strong>.</li><li><em><font size=”3″><font color=”#000000″>weeeeeeeeh. kulang pa. kamusta naman?, Siya ba yun?</font><br /></font></em></li><li><font color=”#009900″>astig pagnaging prof/CI ang mga ito…. Sir Guevarra, Sir Pepa, Mam Verbo, Sir Nico, Sir Jacot the best!, Sir Messiah, Mam Madic, Sir Regala, Mam Estolano,Sir Arguzon, Sir Dayrit…<strong><em>Mam Cabiente….Coolest batch advisers EVEEEEER!</em></strong></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>HS-c ELEVATOR na laging sira sa hapon</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>mga tamad umakyat. isang floor na nga lang, mageelevator pa</font></li><li><font color=”#3399ff”>SHINDIG, AVANTGARDE…at ang SNA elections</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Talents Unlimited.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Chocolates and Water. –> turo ni sir poten yan. </font></li><li><u><strong><font color=”#9900ff”>CAKE FIESTA!!</font></strong></u><br /></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Tackle boxes!!</font></li><li><font color=”#cc33ff”>Community</font></li><li><font color=”#ff9900″>SNA shirt, maong pants, SNA bag, at samahan mo na ng St. Luke’s Jacket. complete attire.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Clean cuts and pusods.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Ate’s and kuya’s in <font color=”#0000ff”><span style=”background-color: #ffffff”>BLUE </span></font>and<span style=”background-color: #ffffff”> <font color=”#ffffff”><span style=”background-color: #0000ff”>WHITE</span></font></span></font></li><li><font color=”#33cc00″>prof: get 1 whole sheet of yellow paper.</font> <font color=”#6600ff”>all students to seatmate: pengeng yellow paper. </font><font color=”#000000″>tapos wala. mageendup, isang studyante ang sponsor ng yellow paper.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><em>ANA PROF: any questions about your grades approach us.</em> <strong><em>STUDENT: mam, KELAN REMOVALS?</em></strong></font></li><li><font color=”#990033″>ola! Chikka! DARNA!! ahhhhhh! LAG!! = sidelying position</font><br /></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Mark Tan, Paolo Go, Kit Tingson, Grace dela Cruz, Phoebe Rances, Ryan Agas,Gladdes Arreco, Kris Dy. Ate’s and Kuya’s / idols.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><font color=”#ff0000″><strong><font size=”2″>FNCP</font></strong></font><br /></font></li><li><font color=”#0000cc”>”Classmates, nagcocolor ako ng manual hanggang dulo 50 pesos lang.”</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Sir Poten : Pagpupulot ka, dapat derecho yung likod. para nurse na nurse.:)</font></li><li><font color=”#ffff00″ style=”background-color: #0033ff”><strong><u>SNA BIG NIGHT!!!</u></strong></font><br /></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Nursing Library na may lunch break din. </font><br /></li><li><font color=”#0066ff”>Breakfast at <strong>7,</strong> Lunch at <strong>12,</strong> Early Dinner at <strong>5,</strong> Midnight Snack at <strong>1. – Sir Poten. (spinal column)</strong></font></li><li><font color=”#cc33cc”>SNA GAZETTE</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>PAGRAI : Sa Pusod ng putik.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Si Mr. Chase. <br /></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>batch items of all kinds. SHIRTS, JACKETS,PINS even ID PROTECTORS.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>yung makitid na fire exit na gustong gustong inaakyatan. akala entrance.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><strong><u>ultimate panakot :</u> <em>”yung finals niyo FNCP lang. 100 pts.” </em>- Sir Bondoc</strong><br /></font></li><li><font color=”#ff6600″>different colors of agars, sterilizing, inoculating, <em>Staphyloccus</em> this and <em>Streptococcus</em> that,antibiotics and <strong>MICROBIOLOGY </strong>fun.fun.fun.</font><br /></li><li><font color=”#009933″><em>”Sir, wait. Pahinga muna ko. di na ko makahinga. mataas yung Carbon Dioxide levels ko sa katawan. mayamaya na ulit ako magsswim.”</em></font></li><li><font color=”#9966ff”>ANA PROF: Okay, View the microscopes tas pagaralan niyo yung specimen/Models.</font><font color=”#0000ff”> STUDENTS: yes Sir.</font> Paglabas ng prof,kanya <font color=”#000000″>kanyang labas ng camera at kukunan ng specimen.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>PANGTAMAD: pagmay nakitang nagpipicture ng specimen/models…sisisgaw.”PAMULTIPLY!”</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″><font color=”#0066ff”><strong>GLADDES ARRECO – Trinitian of the year 2007.</strong></font> Pagnurse talaga, magaling.<br /></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>dissected cat + formaline + siopao after….wuhoo the best.</font><br /></li><li><font color=”#ff3300″>Pagmidterm/finals…Puno ang pathway. Puro Second year. kanya kanyang bukas ng Ana book</font></li><li><font color=”#ff3300″><font color=”#6600ff”>Ang kaba na dulot ng BATTERY EXAMS at INTERVIEW.</font></font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Pagmajor exams, papasok ng maaga. akala naman may significance, kunwari importanteng gawin yun. akala mo magaaral, tatambay lang sa tita glow’s.</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>the best 4-hour lecture with Dr. Rets Jacot Daddy!:soob:</font></li><li><font color=”#000000″>Partida may ana, partida may duty partida may thesis pa, kahit na, <strong>OVER ALL WINNERS</strong> pa rin sa intrams.. <font color=”#ff0000″><strong>tatak ng TUNAY NA MAGALING.</strong></font></font></li><li><font size=”3″><strong><font color=”#000000″><font color=”#0000ff”>BRAVO </font>NURSING <font color=”#ff6600″>CHORVA!</font></font></strong></font></li><li><strong>Dean Luna.. YOU LIEK SOOOOO ROCK.</strong></li></ul><p> </p>

<p>Yan ang mga dahilan kung bakit sa kabila ng hirap, kawalan ng tulog at marami pang ibang bagay, ay masasabi nating masaya maging nurse. Akala niyo, pera lang? Hindi, masaya talaga siya. Try niyo. </p>

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<p><font size=”1″>kung may kulang pa, sabihin niyo lang.:) </font></p>

para pa rin sayo.

Kasama kita ngayong sandali
Nakahiga sa damuhan at magkatabi
Pinagmamasdan ang bituin sa lalim ng gabi
Habang nakatitig sa iyong ngiti

Ngunit ito’y pangarap na lang
Ang kaya lang sabihin ay sana lang sana

**Hindi ko na alam ang aking gagawin
Anino mo na lang ang kayang habulin ng tingin
at paano sasabihin pa sayo…

Di na ako aasa pa
ngayong alam ko na nandiyan na siya
Ngunit sa oras na ikaw ay iwan niya
Asahan mong pupunasan ko ang yong mga luha

Kahit ito’y pangarap na lang
Ang kaya lang sabihin ay sana lang sana

this psychiatric nursing thing is really out to get me.

Okay, first things first. I would like the world to know that our dean is like soooooooo cool. I was absolutely right when I said that she rocks. Although, I am still starstrucked by her. She is my idol. Dean Luna is ♥ I am really ecstatic. hahaha.

We had classes this beautiful Saturday morning. It was perfect for a gimmick day but we had to stay in school the whole morning. But, spending it with the dean, it was definitely worth it. Anyhoo, we talked about some psychiatric disorders and everything was in sync with what I was thinking and yeah, feeling too.

I just heard this news about this Highschool batchmate and minutes after that we were discussing about Major depression. About grieving. about losing someone…

I also remembered those days where this certain former friend of mine was calling me practically every other minute just to check if I’m okay. You know why? I had…HAD suicidal attempts. And if you asked me about this I swear, I won’t say a word. I couldn’t really move because every second of that memory was still oh so fresh. So there.

And and and the Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, I remembered only one person…Sikaret. haha. Although it wasn’t as severe as what was described in the lecture. And with conduct disorders, some of the personality disorders and eating disorders particularly anorexia nervosa, I remembered some people from my High school.

Then I remembered my Psych days discussing Schizo.

Why is psychiatric nursing out to get me? No I’m not schizo. It’s just that it brought back memories I was trying my ass out to repress.

Based on the symptoms, I think I have a personality disorder. Hahahaha!

I SUPER LOVE DEAN LUNA

PAGRAI. sa pusod ng putik.

Our community immersion made me realize lots and lots and lots of things. Mababaw man o makabagbag damdamin. I thought that it would be one of my worst duties ever, but it turned out to be one of the best (walang halong kaplastikan). It was a really different experience. It wasn’t as bad as I expected or was endorsed by team b. So there.

Una na realize ko na kaya pala ang lalaki ng payong namin tapos walang required payong ang kamandag at liliw, dahil sa isang dahilan lamang. Hindi ito mga aso o ulan. Dahil ito sa ulan ng Incidence report na pinamimigay ng mga CI na para bang brochure ng condo for rent/sale. Ngunit maraming pagkakataon na hindi ako nagdala ng payong. Kasi hindi naman ako na-IR. Wuhoo!

Narealize ko din na mali sila. MALING MALI. Swerte din kami sa CI sa Pagrai noh. Well, not quite. Pero okay naman yung mga CI na sinasabi nilang toxic daw. Okay dahil sila nga yung mga naging ka-close ko nung immersion.

Maging ang sector namin ay maraming naparealize sakin.

Swerte pala ako na nakikita ko ang kulay ng mundo. Nakikita ko ang ganda ng likha ng Diyos at kung paano natin unting-unti sinisira ang mga ito. Hindi katulad ni Jaybee na bata palang ipinagkait na sa kanya ang makakita. Pero hindi doon nagtapos ang lahat para sa batang yon. Naglaro pa rin siya, nakisama at nagpatuloy sa laban ng buhay sa kabila ng kanyang kapansanan. Doon ko natutunan ang courage. Ang tunay na ibig sabihin nito. Dapat maging malakas ka kahit na may isang bagay na patuloy na nagpapababa sayo.

Swerte din pala ako dahil marunong akong ipakita ang totoo kong nararamdaman sa paraan ng pagsalita. Hindi katulad ng mga anak kong sina Jonathan at Divine na ungol at tawa lang ang kayang gawin. Minsan, bumibigkas rin pero paputolputol. Don ko narealize na dapat pala kung may sasabihin ka, sabihin mo na. Bago pa mawala ang pagkakataon. Yung dalawang yon, magaling magcolor at magdrawing. Siyempre, mga anak ko yon.

Swerte din ako dahil hindi ako katulad ni Eugene na hindi pinapalabas ng tiyahin niya. Dahil daw hindi siya marunong umuwi. Nagpapasalamat ako kay God dahil hindi niya ako ginawang bobo sa direksyon.

Swerte din ako dahil binigyan ako ng Diyos ng kumpletong mga paa at kamay. Hindi katulad ng ilan sa mga core group leaders namin. Ngunit sa kabila ng kapansanan ay nakuha pang tumulong sa iba. Natutunan ko dito ang tunay na ibig sabihin ng salitang tulong. Ibibigay mo sa iba kung anong meron ka kahit na kulang na yung sayo.

Natutunan ko din ang pakikisama. Biro mo, hindi mo groupmates ang makakasama mo. Kung hindi mga tao galing sa iba’t ibang section na makakasama mo sa unang pagkakataon.

Sa kabila ng putik, sa ulan at sa dami ng bitbitin, marami pa rin akong natutunan at natuwa ako sa experience ko sa pagrai.

Yes friends, PAGRAIan ako.:D

oh no. not this time..

It won’t be password protected. Because, just because.

I tried. I really did. I tried understanding you, I still tried to  make you smile even if I am totally aware that it’s HIM that makes you happy, I tried being there for you…

Apparently, you can’t see it. You know what, you don’t have to waste a lot of effort to make me feel un-needed. You just have to say the word. Just go, “Jean, di na kita kailangan“. Just that. No more of everything. Napakadali di ba?

Don’t blame the world if you  and your special someone fight and run around hugging it the next minute the moment you guys are okay. It’s disturbing. VERY disturbing.

One more thing, I love my friends. Who doesn’t? Kahit si Sir Lorena na ang prof nila, ipaglalaban at ipaglalaban ko ang sagot nila. Yes I’d fight for them. Are we clear? That’s SO WHAT.

There. Happy?

There’s a PS: Oh yes! I have moved on. No more of that A guy. Plus, isaksak mo siya sa baga mo. THE HELL WITH HIM. 

No more Drei for me.